digesting the last few days
noé arrived on wednesday and both he and belle helped me finish the greenhouse which has been redesignated the lean to. belle did some planting of seeds
the next day noé's ps3 deadlined which depressed his mood somewhat. karo and theo came later on to admire the lean to and ended up having daal and staying till a little later than would have suited all the children, but for me it was great to just sit and talk
eco turned up as promised on friday afternoon. great to see him. noé and he proceeded to play guitar hero on the ps2 and i remembered i had stopped paying attention to music at the end of the eighties when i left all my vinyl at reneé's. steve demonstarted his new pedal, dubbed "the 8-bit" which he is very enthused about
the next day, as a result of finally getting round to rehearsing his times tables, i ended up getting very angry and shouting at noé as he had made no effort at all to learn them whilst in france even after gently repeated requests for him to do so. he did some helpful work in the garden later and planted some seeds in trays and pots. he also helped clear the workshop but was sullen. as he left for dominique's house we agreed to discuss his annoyance at the next available opportunity
caught up with eco again on sunday at the louie in dover to where i was given a lift by dominique as both noé and belle had decided to stay at her house. on the journey, we talked about the fact that i considered noé to be educationally retarded. i understood again why i try to limit my interactions with dominique. she finds me too "intense" and i just continuously feel like repeatedly hitting her in the face with a brick and reducing her stupid fucking middle class head to a pulp. i must work on my anger management and one method would be to try and avoid all contact with her and i deeply wish that was possible
the two fires, the people and the music on the hill overlooking dover were a welcome peaceful interlude but as i am writing this the next day i realise even a two minute converstaion with dominique can take me days to get over